another dr apt

SO. Where to begin. I took the long way home from the dr as I tried to compose myself. I am so confused and worried and mad all at once. I went today to get some sort of an answer. Not holding my breath for the dots to be completely connected but just hoping for something. What did i get? NOTHING!! I was told to suck it up.

I saw a different dr today and she told me that according to my blood work that I am not diabetic. Thats great but doesn't explain why my sugar goes so high for no reason. She thinks it is probably my liver causing the sugars to go so high even when I haven't eaten. So, she made sure the referral for gastro was in and told me to head done there to get my apt set. The lady there was so nice. She really tried to help me but she can't force the computer to give me an apt if the gastro dr REFUSE to see me. Thats right, they looked at my blood work and said they don't need to see me. That my liver is fine and there isn't a cause for concern and to repeat the CT in 3 months. WHAT!!! So, she took me down the hall to talk to one of the nurses and she said there is nothing she can do either. She is going to email my Dr and tell him whats going on and to call me to explain because I am concerned. Of course I am concerned!!! You keep telling me that something wrong with me and I need to see a specialist yet then I am told that I can't see them. What am I to do? I am more confused now and not sure what to do. I know that things happen after the type of surgery I had. I get that, but how can we control whats going on when the DR DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS WRONG!!!! I am so upset and lost at this point. I just want answers.

Driving without passing out

The title should give me away!! Thank God for my friends :) Saturday was supposed to be a good day. The kids were going to parents night out and I was heading to the river walk for some much needed momma time. Just walk for a few hours then pick the kids back up and in bed. Well, my night DIDN'T go as I had planned.
I took the kids to parents night out and they were thrilled. I was excited too. I was wearing a cute black summer dress and flip flops. Just wanting to take in the beauty of the river and peacefulness of no kids. I was almost there and I started feeling kinda funny. My breathing was getting quick and my heart was racing. My fingers and toes were tingly and I was getting dizzy. I checked my blood sugar only to be shocked! 293!!! I was scared at that point. Called a friend to talk me while I made it back to the gate. I knew if I could get to the gate that they could get me to the dr. I just wasn't too sure I was going to make it to the gate. I did though!! Think I gave the guards something to think about for a few days though lol. They tried to give me candy and juice!!! HELLO it is already too high :) They tried though. God love them.
The ER Dr isn't sure why this happened again but told me that he is concerned and I should demand answers from my primary Dr. He was very clear in his concern and told me to call first thing monday morning and get in to talk to them.

I will keep ya up to date as I know more. For those that pray please pray that nothing happens to me while I have the kids with me. That is my biggest fear.

Monday

So I know I haven't posted in a bit but things have been busy. So I am officially down over 50 lbs and weigh less than my husband :) Talk about thrilling.
The kids and I have been busy planning out our summer and have enjoyed the sun so much so far. We are leaving for PA in a week and the kids can't wait to see their friends. I am looking forward to some much needed friend time myself. Once we get back here we will be gearing up for our trip to Arkansas. I am really looking forward to seeing family again. I miss being able to see them as often as I wanted. But we will treasure our time with our friends and family this summer for I don't know when we will be traveling again.

Drum roll please.....

I know I haven't updated my weightloss in a while but its been hard for me to see the difference. Until now :)
I have lost 52 lbs and I bought pants in the NORMAL sized section!!! The first time in 4 years!!!!! You don't know how excited I am about this. I cried!! Me :)
I will try to keep you better updated...for those that care

Braves lost

The game was fun last night and I plan on going more often...at least once a month if I can. I had so much fun with Felicia. Today I am going to the eye doctor to get my eyes checked and order new glasses and contacts!! Then off to Corbin's class for his last day of school party. Then Jacob is staying the night....its going to be a fun filled night :)

Pics of kids

here is a link to my new pics of the kids


http://www.flickr.com/photos/38440515@N02

Grrrrr

I hate this place and everything about it. I want to move SO effing bad it isn't even funny anymore. I am searching for apartments as we speak. I can't take the immaturity of my neighbors anymore. I can't take it and i won't. I am so sick of everything they say and do...as if we were in high school. Spreading rumors and talking behind my back. I mean really. Can't people just grow the fuck up?